There are times in our lives where disappointment will happen. Often, things outside of our control, will leave us shaking our heads, and wondering where God is in the equation. If we truly believe the Bible, then we have to know that God is the same yesterday, today and forever. He changes not. So, looking through those lenses – if you ever knew God was real, know that He STILL is. If you ever realized that He is God, and He is in control – He still is! He loves you – He always has and He always will!
I’ve come to the conclusion that there are these times, and like it or not – there isn’t much we can do about it. However, it’s how we react in during these situations that build either strong character, or a weakened character.
As I have mentioned recently, I am facing some unsure health concerns. One week ago, I was supposed to have a consult with the breast surgeon to see what we’re looking at, and how he sees fit to handle it. We then were scheduled at a different location, with a different doctor. That appointment was to be this morning. As it turned out, there was a scheduling error and the appointment needed to be rescheduled. Again. When I was told the appointment would now be delayed an additional two weeks, I cried. To be perfectly honest, I’m just ready for this to be over. Good or bad, I KNOW that God is in control. I can honestly say that I do not fear the results. I’ve just been tired of feeling like I feel, and not having answers.
As I sit here and ponder, I realize that there are good things that can come from even the waiting. God is somehow working in my heart on the topic of patience. As I was sharing my disappointment with a friend, it was aptly pointed out that in the delay, there will be more time to pray. That, right there, showed me a different perspective.
I have found myself in the middle of some intense emotions – both good and bad. The unfortunate part has been that my emotions have been pretty much all over the place. There are times I feel like I can’t do this anymore. When I feel that way, God reminds me that I can – often through the love and support of people He’s strategically placed in my life! So, for what it’s worth – please know I’m grateful for those of you who have taken the time to just be there — to be a friend, to pray, and to just encourage. To those of you who have walked a mile in these shoes, I’m sorry. For all who have just been a friend, listened, and simply cared – you have my gratitude.
Though I have been really disappointed with all the hurrying up to wait, I am learning the concept of trusting God in a whole new way. He is my Father. He is my Friend. He is my Strength. He is my Joy. He is my Healer. See a pattern here? I’m really learning, and putting into practice these things — He is my everything.