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When The Storms Rage

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The storms outside seem to curiously match the storms raging in my heart.

When the temperature is steadily near 100°F and you look up at the skies – noting  clouds and sun everywhere, from the direction you’re departing — to gaze in wonder at the darkness you see ahead.

You wonder how so much beauty is about to collide with so much darkness.
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Back to the temperature watching. You note the temperature gauge on the dash of your car says 101°, and you wonder what the dark clouds ahead of you means. You get to your destination, and it is sunny and bright outside. As you complete your purchases,  you note the atmosphere seems to be at war. Instead of the bright and sunny calm, you now see the darkness pushing it’s way through. You watch the trees swaying in the choppy wind. As you prepare to walk out the door, the rain gets dumped on the sidewalk in front of you. You decide that you enjoy the rain, and walk to the car calmly. You remark that you’ve never experienced such large drops of warm rain.

You realize that what you are observing in the atmosphere and surrounding locality is almost a mirror image of the emotions and struggles you seem to have within the depths of yourself. You shudder as you question what the storm brings next.

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So back to the rainy mess and storms raging outside the car that you’re finally safely inside. You start the car, and take a peek at the temperature gauge again. You believe your car (or perhaps the sun)  is also depressed – as you watch the numbers steadily fall. With amazement, you are captured by the fact that, just moments ago, the gauge said 101°, and now reads 74°F.  Yes, the war in the atmosphere, and the warm, but cooling rain blanketed the area, and the temperature dropped in kind – 27°, to be exact.

The crazy, and somewhat violent, unsure weather conditions – though the storm short in its existence – ushered in a peaceful calm – unlike the unruly heat bearing down on us moments before. It was initially an uncomfortable coolness because we were so used to the blazing sun. Our rain-soaked clothing made the cool feel cooler. But, as we adjusted, we recognized the comfort in the unexpected, but new situation.

I am realizing the similarities in my life right now. As I was pondering these things, a dear friend asked how I was doing. My response shocked her – but of I’m being honest here, it also shocked me. I had the following to say:

I’m okay, I guess. I’m just struggling. My heart is shattered, my faith is crumbling, and my life seems to be falling apart – but hey, it’s all good!

So, there you have it. My life – in pretty much all areas – is swaying around like some stormy weather and swirling in some choppy winds. I can only hope and pray to see a similar calm that followed this storm.

My life is so uncertain right now – with health concerns, spiritual concerns, sexuality concerns, marriage concerns, sexual and physical traumatic concerns, and the list goes on – these are simply some of the most pressing. Not all are with me personally – but closely related or surrounding my family.

With this upcoming week will come potential challenges that, honestly, I cannot even comprehend. What does all this mean? Nothing I can share yet. Mostly because I don’t know. As time and circumstances change, I’ll unpack the feelings and emotions that come along with the changing weather.

These changes will perhaps usher in a new season of life – a season with protected and safely calm winds swaying all around. The troubling parts may remain, but the hope is in my ability to successfully navigate the brewing storms with transparency and authenticity. You see, I aim to represent life with reality, not with rose colored glasses that say all is well with my soul. When life is troubling, and even seeming to spiral out of control – it us imperative to keep on fighting – to be real and allow the world to see that life isn’t always easy — but during those times, hope is the strongest force in the universe at times. If hope is lost, the will to live can just as easily fall to the wayside as well. That ultimately means that hope rests in our own hands. We must choose to always remember it still exists, even when it seems elusive.

My hope and prayer here is that other people can see strength in my story – even when I don’t feel it exists.
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365 Moments Of Gratitude: Thankful For Snow

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I love the snow. I wish it snowed more here. I live in a place that should get more snow than we’ve seen the past two years, but alas – not so much. That said, we had some beautiful snow today. It was short lived, and no real accumulations – but beautiful nonetheless.

Here is a shot of the snow:

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Thank you, God, for the snow – can we have more?

365 Moments Of Gratitude: Have You Thanked Your Weather Team Lately?

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This past week, the city of St. Louis, and surrounding metro area had our first real taste of winter. You know, that white stuff falling from the sky? Finally, we had some. From my understanding, it was the first “measurable” snowfall in almost a year’s time. In other news, last year (2012) has gone down in history as the hottest year on record for the city of St. Louis.

While the cold weather was busy unfolding before our eyes, something else altogether made me take notice. One of the metro area’s news station, Channel 4 / KMOV’s 4Warn Storm Team was busy at work. According to KMOV’s website, The 4Warn Storm Team is made up of Chief Meteorologist Steve Templeton, Meteorologist Kent Ehrhardt, Meteorologist Matt Chambers, and Meteorologist Kristen Cornett. I listened or watched the TV, while also following them on Facebook and Twitter. When the cold weather started, the predictions started along with the ever-changing weather. Just as vacations were being taken, and the team was filling in for each other, I sat back and just watched. As this particular cold front promised lots and lots of snow, then changed to very little snow, then perhaps more yet, so many people were quick to judge the weather man. They are quick to say how they don’t know what they’re doing, and always get it wrong…all because elements of weather (beyond their control, I might add) changed.

I watched and realized something that became very powerful to me. These guys, and weather teams across the country and the world, do what they do because they enjoy it. They are very good at what they do, but they cannot control what the weather does. They do sometimes get the facts wrong…but I’ve noticed – they get them right far more often than they get them wrong.

What really got to me, though, is the fact that they are there – many times, when the weather is uncertain or downright dangerous. They are always there. Even when it means taking precious time away from their family, they are there. When it means late nights, or early mornings, they are there. When, God forbid, there is a natural disaster, they are there. When the weather gets rough – this station goes into what’s called “4Warn Storm Mode” and when I see that, my heart swells with some sort of pride. I have much gratitude for these men and women who – without question – stay up all day and all night just to keep us safe. When I want to know what’s going on, I know I can look to them, and they’ll have answers – to the best of their ability – to keep us safe. That, my friends, is very much a job well done. I had the opportunity to ask Steve Templeton why he does what he does, and if there was anything he’d like to say to those watching/reading. His response was from the heart, and to me was priceless:

…I hope people know that we do care about them, their safety during storms and their plans which often are ruined or made wonderful by weather. We do our best to be as specific as possible to help people plan around weather. At the end of the day, it’s predicting the future, not easy, but I love what I do.

I have watched Steve and his fellow teammates alike during winter storms and tornadoes, and whatever weather is thrown this way. Their presence and guidance speak volumes as to their character. They do what they do, often without much gratitude, simply because it’s their job – and it’s something they love to do.

To anyone from KMOV, or any weather person nationwide, please know you have my gratitude. From my family to yours, thank you. You are very much appreciated.